Letting It Go. HoL 179

Humans of Lagos

"My family had a harrowing experience when my mother died with a fetus she carried and had to be buried by my father and older siblings. But my father's ministry swiftly ordered him to remarry because no worker of theirs can stay unmarried.

This is how we lost our father to the new wife who was protective of her house, her husband and her children. She put a firm hand on things.

The relationship with my father was strained futher when he asked I acquire a vocational skill since I failed my secondary school entrance examination twice. He never asked me what I wanted with my life.

I was sent to learn plumbing, and with my savings, I attempted the entrance examination once again and passed.

And since then, I have never stopped at acquiring degrees upon degrees. But the resentment I had towards my father was ever stronger for forcing me into vocational school instead of encouraging me to pursue formal education.

I dissociated myself from my father, and wished to have nothing to do with my siblings who never stood up for me.

But now that I have reached a place of conscious awareness that this bitterness is eating away at me, I will take steps to reconcile with my siblings now that my father and my step-mother are no more.

I want compassion to replace this anger."

©️ FERT, 2020